A 25 Pound Very Personal Journey
I wish I could have written this post a couple of months ago! If I did, then it wouldn’t appear to be a New Year’s Resolution…that’s something I really DON’T want it to be. You see, I’m not one for New Year’s Resolutions (I’ve never kept a SINGLE one!).
Image from here.
That and my resolution actually took place two months ago!
For those of you who have followed my blog, you know that in the past two years (YES I’ve been doing this lil bloggin’ thang for TWO years), I have:
- travelled A LOT…London, Vegas, Paris, Venice, San Fran, London, Edinburgh, Vegas…
- and I’ve definitely eaten my share of Baconators (Praise the Lard)
- and consumed two or three “libations” (perhaps why @worldbars @askbartenders @digitaldrink @greygooseRSVP @winerestaurants @kingestates @spiceboxwhisky @cocktaildeeva @dirtandmartinis @boozedandinfused @… all follow me on Twitter?…all lovely folks who I LOVE to interact with BTW so if you tweet you should follow them :)
- and spent a wee bit of time sitting on my butt studying Chemistry, my Twitter feed, my Facebook feed,
Eric on True Blood, and taking “selfies” and food shots over on Instagram
Well, to say that those “regular” habits of over-consumption, couch, and computer time have taken their toll on my health and my weight (and taught me how to crop, photoshop, and see 4 seasons of True Blood in 2 weeks) would be an understatement!
Now, I knew I had gained some weight, but I also (fortunately/unfortunately) possess enough fashion skills to be able to hide quite a bit through wardrobe (that’s a whole other post my friends, but read on because I do give another kind of fashion tip further down if you do). The problem is that I was apparently also hiding it from myself.
So what was my wakeup call you ask? Well, as you recall, back in August I began the arduous process to move and revamp this site. Along with that came the need to review old posts and pictures…and what I saw during that review process shocked me!! After looking over two years of “selfies”, I could no longer sit in denial about my weight.
Now don’t get me wrong…like I said, I thought I had gained a LITTLE weight so I kept saying to myself that right after Christmas…New Year’s…the trip to Maui…Easter break…the trip(s) to London, my birthday…hubs’ birthday…our anniversary…(see where I’m going with this?) I’d start to change my ways. Alas, there was always something on the horizon that caused me to push the pause button on setting a solid plan into action for my LITTLE problem.
Until the photos…
I immediately went to the scale and was blown away to find I had gained 25 pounds over the course of ONE year (considering I hadn’t given birth, that statement right there deserves a paragraph all on its own)!!!
So where’s this PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE that no longer allowed my right brain to over-ride my left? Right here…not exactly swimsuit shots (I have them, but you didn’t really think I was going to post those did you?). Instead, I found more blog appropriate photos, even if they are not nearly as revealing.
The first is from October 2011 wearing my pencil thin True Religions, quite comfortably in a healthy weight range of 140 lb for my 5’8″ frame:
Compare that to this October 2012′s post where the same brand of jeans I was wearing were 3 sizes bigger than the ones from the previous year (denial apparently still shops!), yet they were way too tight! Note all the pulls and wrinkles along the leg compared to the previous photo!
Not so bad you say? Well consider that’s 25 extra pounds of butter and an unhealthy 165 lb. under those jeans that are three sizes bigger…and at 25 pounds a year, this had the potential to be a problem that grew, so to speak! In just another year, I’d be pushing 190!
Ok, so I’ve read this far Suzie…where’s the fashion tip?
I’ve mentioned this before…take photos of yourself in your outfit before you head out the door. For some reason, our brains don’t really register what we look like when we simply do a mirror check. Instead, we see and focus on the bits and pieces of what we want to see (perhaps a psychological protective mechanism?). It’s as if we can’t take in the whole picture at once. But if you take a picture, you will quickly see IT…whether an outfit either needs an addition or a deletion somewhere? Does that purple scarf REALLY work or does it clash? I really don’t need an arm party AND a neck party at the same time…trust me…you’ll notice something practically every time. So why, given how many photos I take, didn’t “I” see the additional weight before, you ask? Like a bad accessory or outfit choice, why couldn’t I see the extra 25 pounds?
I think in part it’s because my head was cut out of photos for posting…I’m sort of disassociated from my body when I do this I guess. I deliberately do this for two reasons, one is because I want you to see the outfit in the posts and imagine it on yourself…I don’t want me to be the focus. It wasn’t until I sat down to put photos together to make a collage for the new blog that I couldn’t help but see the difference! It was the side by side comparison that really put this issue in focus for me…kinda like seeing your high school year book picture and a picture of yourself now! You don’t see how much you’ve changed when you look in the mirror NOW, but you sure do when you compare to other photos.
Right then and there I decided that it no longer mattered what time of year it was, the time to change was NOW. And that was that! I DID IT! Sounds too easy right? But I have to say the toughest part of changing my ways was actually leading myself out of denial and making up MY MIND that it was time.
And so began my journey toward health and wellness that began 8 weeks ago. And magical things have happened since that decision, let me tell you!
But, I’m sure y’all are tired of the story for today, and as the old saying goes “the mind can only absorb what the butt can withstand” so I’ll give you a break and end this with Part Two on Sunday. And don’t worry, this is not a sponsored post and I’m not on any shake/juice/paleo/atkins/inject diet.
I just want to share my story of what and who helped me with my process (in fact, she has no idea I’m sharing this with you) although I guess I have to tell her now.
But before I leave, can you tell me if you’ve set a resolution for the New Year? And if so, have you made the same one before and broken it, or were you successful? Do you look at old pictures of yourself to see how you’ve changed…even if they were only from last year?
I’m dying to know! Why? Because we can all learn from each other
‘Til Tomorrow Y’all!